how feasible is it to write the first thing that pops up

does it make the blank paper soon to be full less holy

cause you didn’t get deep enough

you just bursted out

what i do is no different

after the first thought this is the first question

though first thought and first question is not the same

they are still the first in something

so i’m going to take a pause right

here.

mindless mind residing in a broken place turned whole

beast’s belly is full he is too tired to hunt

sigil of god mark these words

turn back to cowardice turts

cover these nerds

so this is what it’s like to write with an empty mind

i’m going back to not writing.

i am not a writer and this is not a prologue to my i am not a writer i am a righter rant

didn’t know why that was necessary to explain as

a reader reads with an empty mind

so i feel responsible to let you know what you shouldn’t think as well as what you shall

you wouldn’t know the existence of it if i didn’t bring it to your attention but

you need to know something exists and then not believe it

ignorance isn’t anything

it’s just ignorance

anyways i am not a writer and i don’t want to be a writer

i don’t even want to write

writing feels so low-vibrational

you’re writing for what

for whom

you’re writing for what reason

why document the dark

let there be light

why is it needed

dark stuff

dark shit

is it needed

are they needed

i do not know

but i do not want to write

because writing is too embarrassing for me

i feel a deep shame

for feeling the feelings i feel

and to know that i documented all that?

ridiculous

burying my head in the sand

where the dandelion is greeted by a dragon’s fangs

where i let out a dang

this is not the ideal place

i chose a new spot for writing

i chose a new spot to write from too

i also chose a new spot to right from

it’s higher up my spine just below the fly god

funk it is not

i chose a new spot to do things from

i chose a new spot to do things for

i don’t need what i used to

i need higher stuff

higher you go higher you get

do you?

or is your high just another low

who decides

witch is which

you’re a bitch

and i’m a child

crossed t’s and dotted i’s

i wish i could see my eyes

im going to create a platform where people will auction their used notebooks filled with stuff

there will be filters like from a bilingual person, this many languages in the book

only 5 pages of content will be displayed

captured randomly

your dearest fan is someone curious to step in that little head

study what you poured out

watch how you be

AHHHHHHHHH IM SO GOOD

now i say

semen the sea men crawling under the d-pad with the weedmen

in the basement serving the base with the bass pumpin my soaked out face

SCREAMING I DID NOT CHOOSE THIS FATE

something about writing with my head buried on the desk

something about the centrifugal force

now what rhymes what wordplays am i gonna come up with centrifugal force

give me a moment to repeat the phrase in my head

centrinoodle force

tape 3 noodle dork

face thee rugal fork

lace me eughoul morgue

yoohoo i’m fucking shit up

centriyoohoo force

you know what

i got a lot to let out and maybe then and only then i will consider

consider

concider

maybe then i will concider my dick

should i concider my dick you twat of a reader?

fuck you reader you know

not in the way that i will fuck you but fuck you in the way that i’m cursin u

and not fucking u

cause i don’t wanna fuck u

i wanna have sex with u

i wanna make love with u

i wanna love with u

i wanna see u lovin yoself

i’ve been told that if you don’t take yourself seriously

life won’t take you either

i mean though would i like life to take me seriously as serious is heavy and love is a light stepping and a light stepping

like life flunked fucking a flock of birds and now i am here

like life sike

ride your damn bike

boo

i am writing

so that means i am writing about something

though i don’t know what i’m writing about, i’m still writing about something

when will i ever not write about something

as long as i’m writing about something

i will write about something