create


99 imma fuck you up tomorrow

im paying u all this money and you dont give a fuck about me so im going to verbally assault you

and there is nothing you can do about it

well you may refuse to take me as a patient but then wouldn’t it be revealing

you

dedicate your life to service of others and when in contact with one you

doc

i don’t think i can choose one thing from the past to show it to you so i’m going to create one

i’m happy as fuck even when i’m sad as hell doc

i’m happy as fuck in my sadness

but i’m also miserable

unloved swallowed hate and the love i give makes them puke

i’m a creepy as hell lover doc

i’m creepy as fuck

but i can’t help it i love it

i’m aligned with it all

i kill it doc

i swear to god i’m special

i’m performing i know

i don’t know doc

WHY THE FUCK IM PAYING YOU

SAY SOMETHING

YOU HELP ME

FUCK THIS SHIT

ye ye i know it’s me my power my responsibility and all that other shit

but doc

i got u




14 creating is not creating

creating is not creating anymore it’s destruction to fill my black hole caused by my inability to create

i just want to create and im so fucking tired of not being able to

shut the fuck up